new beginning 2011 with new hopes

This few days, I always come arross to lies to people surronding me. Is difficult to trust them in the same time, that why I do so this kind of things. Yeah is not my truely attitude. I come accross when a lots people and surrounding me keep and moving to lies to me. So my question is so that simple, why not im doing the same things to them also. Why not...but i know it's not going rite...people do bad, and im will follow them to do bad things also..mouth will easy saying that i will do it..try to act it.. is will be hard also..it's not an easy as you saying...

Early 2011, is seem difficult for me to continue the living. Last year expereinced teach me how bad the world is...is how bad the people surronding me. I can't find a honest 1 and good 1 here. Nobody...where with your own strength to do it oso...is so difficult to do soo...

first things early the year of 2010, how the guys lies to me for his own benefits. Well I was consider to try it soo.. to find out myself how difficult will he do it..how he try to hide all the lies...about himself..and I was never expereinced it before also wanna to try with new expererienced. with new excitement, new nervous, where all mix feeling in heart, all all kind of things in my head. Is all playing all arround...where the same things he want to do to me and me too...one side will hurt, whereof it me. thanks to God for the good expereinced. where i can find a good expereience toward people who rely have a good feeling toward you and where who rely not where want to have benefit you in all kind heart you have.

i have test all this kind of things..and after few months later...i have find out that he was playing..with my heart. i thank God that i am not rely in him too..is not so easy. i know he have a sweet talk, very2 sweet/
not even a month i am back he was with some1..that i find out myself...thanks God. for all kind of this experienced. no wonder God is so beautiful. Already in the first place, he was not same faith as me. so obviously he was NOT. i know that too..i also playful just want to full fill my free times...guys friends..and im stupid...gurl also rely...yeah...same= same...double win...

so the first thing 2011...
is so bad to start...
i have bad feeling toward my own "fam"
end 2010 last with very2xx bad expereinced toward my fam...that i can't forget about it..
how will i start this year God...that I ask???
how..all the lies comes out...
all...how....will i...
the lies...can't will keep there forever and ever...
u will find out it 1 days...
all the truth is forever and ever...
lies can't stand forever...

how to begin the lives without feel guilty..without remmember the past...
how to begin..

jus go on...

don't turn back...

4ever and ever...